Wishing everyone a Good Christmas!

This time of the year can be hard, can’t it? The world around us says we should be merry and bright. But what if you are not? What if the holiday reminds us of a loved one that passed away? It hurts that you couldn’t buy them a present or see them at the table. Maybe there was a divorce and family split, so now you are alone. There are many reasons you might not be singing carols and unwrapping presents with family and friends today. You are allowed to grieve. Your feelings are real and valid. Just remember the Reason for the Season. That sounds trite, but it is still true. Man created Christmas and all its hype and traditions, but the basis for Christmas is that Jesus was born. God in flesh, born so that he could die and pay for the sins of the world so that we don’t have to wallow in hopeless grief alone.

OK, done preaching now 🙂 I hope that all, even those of us who are alone or grieving, can find some peace, joy, and love today.

It’s been quite a while since I posted. Let’s get the health stuff out of the way first. My cancer is doing well. A quick recap: I was diagnosed with stage 3 rectal cancer in July 2020. I did chemo and radiation and had surgery and I was cancer-free for a little over a year. It came back and spread to my liver in 2023. So that means it is now stage 4. We did a procedure to get rid of that, and that worked. But then in 2024 it spread to one lung. We did radiation, which was good. Then it spread to both lungs and we did chemo. It grew more and I had radiation in August. It appears to have been pretty successful. I saw my oncologist last week and he doesn’t see any new spots and the ones I had were either the same size or maybe a bit smaller. I did have a fairly common side effect from the radiation called Radiation Pneumonitis that lasted most of October into the end of November. That was nasty, but I am feeling better now. So, now that that is out of the way, let’s talk books!

My next book comes out January 2, 2026!

And my last bit of news is that I am once again doing my Annual Christmas Stocking GiveAway! There will be some of my books, a calendar, a coffee mug with hot chocolate, tea, and coffee, some chocolates, a nap quilt made by yours truly, and a $25.00 Amazon Gift Card. I think of it as a Reader’s Perfect Evening basket. Curl up under a quilt with a good book and a delightful hot drink and some chocolate. That’s my idea of a perfect evening! I will be putting out a newsletter with directions for entering on Friday, December 5. Random . org will draw a winner on the evening of Monday December 8.

Until next time, Happy Reading!

Hello, all! It has been quite a while since I posted. I have a couple of health (physical and mental) updates, some rambling thoughts to share, and some book news. Buckle up!

Back at the end of January 2024 I received an email from the new pastor of the church I’d been a member of for over 20 years letting me know that he found my books to be sinful and leading my readers to hell. He said I had to repent, take my books down, and destroy all my files or I would be under church discipline. I freaked out and took my books down. But I prayed about it, very seriously, and could not agree. I told him that. I began putting my books back up. On March 17 the church voted to remove me from their membership. I received the formal letter of excommunication in April. Not only were they removing me from their church, they also said they did not consider me to be a member of the body of Christ. That was very difficult for me. My mental health suffered a lot. And of course, about a month after that I learned the cancer had spread so widely in both my lungs that there was no hope of a cure. The oncologist said he had patients with my diagnosis live for 10 years. I would probably do something like 6 months of chemo and 6 months of rest. Or maybe some radiation along the way.

I did a pretty intense round of chemo every other week from July through December. I got through it pretty well in spite of a nasty allergic reaction to one of the chemo drugs. I wasn’t horribly sick, I didn’t lose my hair, I had some energy. I worked almost every day.

In December I opened a manuscript for a romantic fantasy book I had started quite a long time ago. It’s called The Storm King. I decided that by golly I was going to finish it. And I did, in early June. It is around 95,500 words long. My editor expects it in her inbox on 8/4. I have ordered cover art. I am tentatively planning to publish it the last week of October 2025. I have started book 2, The Fire Prince, and I have a vague idea about book 3, The Ice Lord. I am pleased with The Storm King. I think it is a good mix of fantasy and romance.

I will certainly be posting more about that book in the coming months. If you are looking for pages and pages of hot sex you’ll be disappointed. But my books were never about pages of kinky sex linked together by a thin storyline. A year ago my brother told me I should add to the blurb of Lobo’s Mate. Something like “Read the book so scandalous that it got the author kicked out of her church!” But I knew if I put that on it 95% of the people who bought it would return it disappointed by how tame the love scenes were. I have spent hours in prayer, and I don’t feel that the After the Crash books are sinful. This new series has even milder love scenes. Even so I doubt that would meet the approval of my old church. And that’s okay. Because they told me that while God knows my ultimate end, they do not consider me a part of the body of Christ anymore. It’s like they are saying that it doesn’t matter to them what God decides, THEY will make up their own minds about me. That level of hubris is scary. In 1 Peter 5, it says God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble.

Enough of my angst. I have my next scans on 7/14 and I see the oncologist on 7/21. At that point I will know what my next steps in cancer treatment will be. Right now I feel fine. A little tired. Which might be due to emotional fatigue as much as physical fatigue. Or maybe this blessed heat! Sheesh, I hate uber hot weather!

Thanks for listening to me ramble. 🙂 I will be posting again next month with more Storm King news.

Happy Reading!

Maddy

Merry Christmas to those who celebrate!

I wanted to take a minute to give you an update on me. On December 13, 2024 I finished 6 months of chemo. I had scans on December 18, 2024, and today I saw my oncologist to find out my next steps in my cancer fight. Well, things are a little up in the air. The scans looked pretty good, with no new cancer spots popping up in my lungs or elsewhere. My oncologist, Dr. W, wants to confer with Dr. J, my radiologist. He thinks I may be a candidate for more radiation on the lung. But Dr J is out for a couple of weeks so we will have to wait until early January to find out if I can tolerate more radiation. If I can, then radiation may kill some of my cancer spots. Based on my history, Dr W is sure more cancer will appear in the future, and we will probably treat with chemo. But I will have a break at least through March. YAY!!!

So… There is no cure for my cancer, but the goal is to control and slow the growth. I may live several more years. Dr W says he has patients who live 10 years with ongoing chemo. So I don’t expect to be going home to heaven any time soon. 🙂

I am not writing now. You may remember that I started writing an inspirational Christmas novella several years ago. Last December I had picked that back up and was working on it in January when the email from the pastor of my old church came and sent me into a tail spin. I still haven’t recovered from that. But I have at least 3 months off from chemo so maybe I will get some energy back and be inspired to work on that. Or maybe something else. This summer and fall I spent my time sewing and knitting to donate quilts and hats to the Roger Maris Cancer Center.

The annual payment for this website is due in January. I am debating renewing. I am not writing right now, and as you can see I am seldom out here. That is partly because the chemo completely wiped me out. I am also setting up my budget for 2025. Cancer is expensive and I could put the money for this website to something else and just use my Facebook author page to keep in touch with readers.

I hope that wasn’t too whiney or depressing! I am really looking forward to having a few months off of chemo. And the fact there is no new cancer detected is really encouraging too. That means the chemo (as unpleasant as it is) is working, and that is worth it. I hope you all have a wonderful holiday season.

Love, Maddy

It is finally, after the warmest September on record, Fall here in North Dakota. Today’s high was 70, and when I got up it was delightfully cool. The only bad thing about fall is that it is followed by winter.

Here is a health update: I went today to get my blood work done in preparation for chemo tomorrow. I am getting awfully tired of chemo. Only three more months to go! I should be done by Christmas. I had a CT scan done on Friday but the results aren’t in yet. Hopefully it will show the spots in my lungs have shrunk. We’ll do it again at the end of December or the beginning of January. I have been very tired, which is completely normal. I do have a few side effects but they are generally mild.

Now that the weather is cooling down I am about ready to do the Reader Quilt & Goodie Bag Giveaway. This quilt will be part of the giveaway. Check your email at the end of this weekend for my next newsletter which will have the entry form. Wouldn’t it be nice to lounge around on a couch under this quilt with a good book, a hot beverage and a bag of chocolate?

But now it is time for the next chapter in the Storm King. Enjoy!

Chapter Eight

It was long after what Ashley’s stomach thought should be suppertime when they stopped to make camp. When she climbed out of the saddle she could barely stand. Just like yesterday, her knees refused to touch, but this was much worse. Lord Bodiel kindly supported her to a tree stump and kept her company until her tent was set up by another pack of teenagers. Clearly, the boys were the grunts of this army. They also took Auriela away and brought Ashley another bowl of stew. The healer came and checked her elbow. It was feeling much better. Ashley opened her mouth to mention how saddle-sore she was but closed it. What could he do? Bandage her inner thighs? They weren’t bleeding, just very, very sore. Finally, when her tent was ready, Lord Bodiel bid her good night and she waddled with no dignity whatsoever into her tent and fell, fully clothed with her cloak still fastened around her throat, on the bed.

Ashley didn’t know how much later it was when she was woken by a hand smoothing her hair.

“Ashley,” a low voice rumbled.

She twisted around, choked by something pressed against her throat. She gurgled, twisting wildly to escape.

“Wife,” the same low voice said firmly.

Jerriel. As soon as Ashley realized that she also realized that he wasn’t choking her. Her cloak was bunched under her chin and the hard metal clasp was pressed against her windpipe. She sat up, yanking it away. Since her arms got tangled up in the cloak, she flailed ineffectively to free herself.

“Here, let me.”

He gently pushed Ashley’s hands aside and unfastened the clasp before tossing the cloak to the end of the bed. A lamp was on the table, sending mellow light through the small tent. He sat in one of the chairs he’d pulled away from the table and positioned beside the bed. Ashley sat up, feeling rumpled and bleary, her whole body aching. Everything in the tent was exactly as it had been this morning: bed on one side of the center pole, table on the other, and the wooden chest at the foot of the bed. Ashley hadn’t done a thing to help set it up. When she’d moved to go help Lord Bodiel had stopped her. Which was fine since she’d been stiff and sore from riding all day.

The stiffness hadn’t gotten any better with her nap. Right now, her thighs and butt ached with the fiery pain of a thousand burning suns. She had to grit her teeth to keep from groaning. On the plus side, her elbow barely hurt at all.

Ashley didn’t think Jerriel missed her discomfort. He twisted in his chair to reach behind him and pick something off the table. He held out a little jar to her.

“Salve,” he said. “It will help your saddle sores. You need to apply it to your skin in the area you are sore.” His thick lashes swept down and back up and he gave me a little smirk. “Would you like me to help you?” he purred.

“No!” Ashley sputtered for a few seconds before she saw his grin. “You’re teasing me.” The Storm King, who had sat in that throne on a stage above the blood he’d shed, would never have teased her like this. Even yesterday, he wouldn’t have been like this. “Aren’t you?”

“Just a little.”

Ashley searched his face. It was relaxed in a smile. “You’re more like the Jerriel I wro—remember from before.”

His lush mouth straightened for a moment before curving again. “I’d almost forgotten what it felt like to feel like this. Relaxed. With you I can be that Jerriel. But not with anyone else.”

Ashley nodded, kind of liking the idea that this side of Jerriel was reserved for her. “What time is it?”

“Midnight. Are you tired?”

Duh. She couldn’t keep a yawn back. “I guess I’m not used to traveling like this.”

He picked up her hand and kissed the back. “There is no more comfort I can give you. No maidservants travel with my army. When we are home, you will have a dozen maids to help you bathe and take care of your clothing and wait on you.”

Ashley had never had a maid in her life. She didn’t know what she would do with one much less a dozen.

He went on. “When your woman from Grimstaborg arrives she can wait on you.”

Ashley suppressed a smile at the thought of telling Maya she was now a maid even as hope rose in her. “Is she here yet?”

“No. It may take Maksil and Colir some time to find her and then bring her to us. Be patient, wife.”

Ashley swallowed a sigh. “Right. You called me Ashley when you woke me up.”

“Yes.” He mouthed the name now, looking like he was trying to decide if he liked it. “I have thought of you as Valdis for so long I may forget.”

“That’s okay. I never knew you were called Rodir.”

There was no humor in his smile when he said, “I told many Thessians I was Prince Rodir of Erabir. They told me my name was Nobody. I was No One. From that day forward no one called me by my name. You were the only person I asked to call me Jerriel.” He leaned forward and stroked a finger from the outside tip of her eyebrow, over her cheek, and down to the hollow of her throat. “You were the only one worthy to call me Jerriel.”

Oh, boy. Ashley swallowed. This is how she’d imagined Jerriel being. Handsome, tender and sweet. For a moment she forgot that she was rumpled from sleep and sore from ten hours in the saddle. “Is it playtime?”

As soon as the words were out, Ashley bit her tongue. The violent Storm King touched her gently and she was ready to fall into his arms? Am I insane? Maybe. But she’d like to know what it would be like to kiss him.

He chuckled, his teeth gleaming white against his brown skin in the lamplight. “Playtime? Are we children?”

“We were, when we first met.” She looked at him through her lashes, nerves dancing with curiosity in her belly.

He slid his cheek along hers. “Even at thirteen I knew I would love you.”

“Love,” Ashley began, but he kissed her, a warm open-mouthed kiss that quickly grew hot as his tongue glided against hers.

Holy wow. Ashley had been kissed before, but none of the guys she’d dated was even half as good looking as Jerriel, and none had made her feel this good with just one kiss. She hadn’t noticed that his hair hung loose until she fisted her hands in it.

Too soon he lifted his mouth away and sat back, but not enough to release her face. His hands cupped her cheeks, his thumbs caressing her temples.

His eyebrow hooked up. “What were you going to say?”

“What?” Ashley’s mind was completely blank. “I can’t remember.” When his lips curved, she shook a finger at him. “You don’t have to look so smug!”

“I think I have reason. I kissed my wife senseless.”

Ashley trembled as she touched his face with the fingertips of both hands. She traced his slim, straight eyebrows and moved lightly over the curve of his high cheekbones. His mouth was soft, and his straight jaw was hard. She smoothed over his throat to his collarbones and then his shoulders. I’m touching him, she thought with amazement. But who am I touching? Jerriel or the Storm King? She followed the bulges of his biceps to his forearms. He let go of her face to catch her hands in his.

“I like you like this,” Ashley whispered. “When I first saw you, back in the city, I was afraid of you. Even this morning you weren’t like this. What changed?”

He lifted her hands one at a time to his lips and kissed them. “You. I’ve lived with bitterness for many years. Even before I was made a slave, I’d learned that trust is dangerous. Oniel was favored by our father. If he could have, he’d have made Oniel his heir and set me aside. It made things difficult for me.” His lips quirked in a humorless smile. Ashley remembered that Oniel was Lord Vatir. “Aside from my cousins Iriel and Jabril, you are the only person I’ve completely trusted.”

“But you didn’t seem too happy to see me yesterday.”

“Ah, yesterday.” He sighed, his face hardening for a moment before smoothing into regret. “It was a disaster. I was furious to find that you were with the criminals. And you didn’t seem happy to see me either.”

Well, duh. He had been a stranger, one who didn’t seem to have an ounce of gentleness or kindness in him. “You were, uh, pretty scary.”

He shook his head and kissed one of her hands again. “Didn’t you wonder why you were treated like a prisoner instead of my promised wife?”

“Well, yeah, kind of. I mean, I could have been killed or raped.”

Jerriel lunged to his feet and dragged her up with him, crushing her against his chest. Ashley bravely ignored the twinge from the saddle sores because he seemed almost frantic to hold her tight.

“Exactly.” He pressed a kiss to the top of her head. “Before the battle began, I gave orders that you were to be found immediately and brought to the camp. My uncle Bodiel led a troop to Governor’s House to find you and escort you back. I gave him your name and a description of what you had looked like ten years ago. Not many Thesswomen have hair the color of yours. He did not find you. A servant told him you and your maid had gone to the market to purchase silk for new garments.”

“What kind of an idiot would go clothes shopping when an army was right outside?” she mumbled into his chest.

“I wondered that too. My brother suggested that perhaps you were trying to hide from me.” He paused for a moment. “Possibly I allowed his words to poison my mind. When I saw you and you seemed reluctant to accept me as your husband, it enraged me.”

Ashley stirred against him, wondering how she could bring up the truth. He wasn’t her husband and Valdis was just a character in a story. But in exchange for his help in finding Maya she had promised to not talk about it. She didn’t want to piss him off again, not when he was actually talking, so she kept quiet.

 He let his head drop so his cheek rested against the top of her head. “Bodiel sent me word that you could not be found, but the message was received by Oniel, not me. He sent out several messengers to the various troop commanders, but his orders were garbled. He said any woman with brown hair should be detained for me to question.”

“Oh.” That explained why the brown-haired women had been in the pen. “Did he know why you wanted me found?”

Jerriel’s eyes chilled. “Oh, yes. He knew that I had accepted your bridal pledge. It suited him to have me married to a distant Thesswoman but married to a woman who could give me heirs is not what he wants.” He pulled back to look into her eyes. “That is why you must be careful to never be alone with him.”

Ashley’s heart fell to her toes before leaping up to her throat. “Did he send the wrong message on purpose?” She swallowed. “Do you mean he would kill me?”

“I don’t know that he would go so far as to assassinate you. But if you were to die in an accident that could not be traced back to him, I don’t think he would hesitate.”

“So if I was killed by an Erabiri soldier it wouldn’t have made him cry.” Her heart was reluctant to go back to its usual place in her chest. Suddenly being followed by two guards at all times seemed like a marvelous idea.

“No,” Jerriel agreed.

“But Lord Bodiel said he wasn’t your heir, so he couldn’t inherit the throne even if you didn’t have kids.”

He released her with another light kiss to her hair and guided her back down onto the bed while he took his seat in the chair. “Legally, he cannot inherit. He does have a large number of friends who support him, though, so it is possible that he could put himself on the throne illegally.”

A coup. Ashley nodded, remembering several incidents in history when something like that had happened. Hatshepsut in Ancient Egypt, Mary and William in the Glorious Revolution in England, and a whole slew of Roman emperors had taken power that wasn’t meant to be theirs.

“I didn’t write any of this,” she muttered.

Jerriel gave her an odd look but didn’t say anything about that. “Let’s go back to your original question of why I am different now than I was yesterday.”

She nodded, wanting to know.

“The further away we get from Grimstaborg, the more relaxed I feel,” Jerriel told her. “And the more you smile at me and talk with me the happier I feel. A man doesn’t need to guard himself when he is with someone who makes him happy. You make me happy, V—Ashley. With you I am not King Rodir. I am Jerriel.”

“I like Jerriel a lot better.”

He smiled and stood up. “Me too. I will let you get some sleep. Tomorrow is back in the saddle for another day of travel.”

She couldn’t help it; she groaned.

“Poor wife.” He nodded at the salve she’d abandoned on the bed. “Don’t forget to use that.” His smile turned devilish. “Even if I hadn’t agreed to keep my hands above your waist, I wouldn’t torment you with my touch in such abused areas.”

Her mouth fell open. “Jerriel!”

He laughed. “And remember, in two days we will stop at Herzborg and stay a couple of nights. You can have a hot bath then instead of washing up in a basin of cool water.”

That sounded like heaven. “I can’t wait,” she told him. Maybe Maya and the two men he’d sent to find her would have caught up with them by then.

“Rest, wife.”

“Good night.” She paused for a moment before adding, “Husband.”

Have a wonderful week!!

On Saturday my wall air conditioner died. I put in a service order with the rental office. I live on the thrie floor of a three-story apartment building and my windows face south and west. It gets darned hot in here. That first day wasn’t too bad because the high was in the mid-70s and it cooled off at night. I set up every fan I owned to try to keep the sluggish air moving. Sunday was hotter. Monday was hotter than Sunday, Tuesday was hotter than Monday, and Wednesday (today) was hot and humid, and very smoky from the fires in Canada. I absolutely HATE being hot, so this was like my worst nightmare.

Today at 3:10 pm two nice men came to my door hauling an ancient and filthy air conditioner. I looked at the monstrosity with a lot of doubt but they assured me they had tested it at the shop and it worked. They obviously hadn’t cared about the dust. They put it in the sleeve in my wall and turned it on. It roared like a dragon, but air came out and it was cool. In a few minutes it was quite cool. One of the guys gave it a fond pat and said that these 30 year old models worked better than the newer models and lasted for decades.

Now, two hours later I feel very comfortable in the living room/dining room area. The bedroom is still 82, but hopefully it will cool off before bedtime. I am a happy camper.

So, a day late, here is the next chapter from The Storm King. And here is a pic of what Jerriel might look like. Enjoy!

Chapter Seven

His black brows slammed down. “Never. I am not a criminal.”

Except that he killed people and left the ones still alive homeless with callous unconcern. Ashley shuddered. Why is this happening? Ashley wailed to herself. How is it happening? What am I getting myself into?

His hands tightened over her shoulders. “Give me an answer or we have no deal, and your friend will have to fend for herself.”

How hard could it be to let Jerriel kiss her a little? He was handsome. Cruel and scary, but he hadn’t hurt her on purpose. Her fear was that the more intimate they became, the more attracted she would be to him. She might even start to like him. The more she liked him, the harder it would be to leave him.

She would leave him. She and Maya would find a way back home. They had to. And she would leave Jerriel behind because the mind boggled at the idea of him in 21^st century America.

He believed they were married. Ashley would have to find a way to convince him that she wasn’t lying to him. Maybe when Maya came, she could convince Jerriel. But for Maya to convince him, she had to be found and brought here. And for Maya to be found Ashley would have to go through with this bargain. She firmed her jaw. “Okay.”

“You agree to my terms?” Jerriel inquired, eyes intense and fixed on her face.

“Yeah.”

“This agreement is only until we reach home. Once we are at the House of Cool Waters, there will be no rules to prevent me from touching you where and how I like.” His smile was smug. Ashley hated that smile. “In private, of course. Agreed?”

Ashley swallowed. “Agreed.”

He took her hand but instead of shaking it he raised it to his lips and kissed the back. “Agreed.”

He lifted a hand in some sort of signal and two men hurried over. “My wife has a quest for you. She wishes her friend found and brought to her. Describe her, wife.”

Ashley wanted to do a little victory dance, but she kept herself calm. She looked at the closest man. “Her name is Maya Scholl. She’s my age, about this tall.” She held her hand flat, several inches above her head. “Her hair is blond, really light blond, and her eyes are blue.” Crap. She’d just described ninety-nine percent of the women in the city. “She’s wearing a blue dress.” Well, cut it down by at least fifty percent. “She’ll be looking for me. Tell her you’re taking her to Ashley.”

He inclined his head. “And where will we find her, lady?”

“She’ll probably be hanging around the city. She’ll be looking for me.”

Jerriel spoke up. “She may have joined a group of refugees heading north to New Thess City.”

Ashley opened her mouth to argue but shut it. Better to have them search carefully everywhere than miss her.

The first man bowed to Jerriel, and then to Ashley. “We shall find her.”

“Thank you.” She watched them walk away for a moment before turning back Jerriel. “Thank you,” she said again. “From the bottom of my heart.”

He gave her his cold smile and flicked a finger against her cheek. “You’ll earn it. Wait here. Someone will come with a horse for you.”

I’d earn it? Ashley swallowed, glad she hadn’t had breakfast yet. Her tummy was distinctly uneasy.

The man who came with a horse for her was probably in his late thirties. He looked familiar. He appeared almost effeminate compared to the other Erabiri. Ashley wasn’t sure what exactly struck her as girlish about him. His black hair was waist length, but so was almost everyone else’s. The black liner that all the Erabiri wore around their eyes was maybe thicker and more dramatic on him. The thick line curled up at the outer corners, almost to the tips of his eyebrows. He was slenderer than most of the other men she’d seen, almost as slender as the teenaged boys. Or maybe it was the languid way he moved. Or the double strand of heavy gold chains that hung around his neck. The jewelry reminded Ashley of where she had seen him before. He had been on the stage with Jerriel yesterday and he hadn’t seemed to like her.

He greeted her with a wide smile. “Good morning, my lady. I am Lord Vatir.” He moved close enough to take her hand and raise it to his lips. “However, since you are my sister, you may call me Oniel.”

She was his sister? She pulled her hand away, resisting the urge to wipe it on her cloak. “Good morning.” Ashley saw two more men behind him on horseback, each leading a saddled horse. She nodded at them too. “Good morning.”

They gravely dipped their heads. Lord Vatir ignored them as he took the reins of one of the horses, a long-legged brown horse with a white streak down its nose. He led the animal up to her.

“This lovely bay lady is Auriela, bred from my own stables. May I give you a hand up?”

Ashley accepted his help and the way his hand lingered on her ankle once she was in the saddle made her want to kick him away. She should have worn the boots, not the shoes, which left her ankles bare without socks. Dang it all. She managed a tight smile. He mounted the larger black horse and led her through the dismantled camp, with the other two men trailing behind us. They were joined by two more men Ashley vaguely recognized as the guards from outside her tent. It looked like half the army was already moving out. They made for a dirt road ahead. It was hardly more than twin tracks through the grass. Compared to it, the dirt county roads back home looked like well-established highways.

“I thought I was going to ride with the king,” Ashley remarked.

“Not this morning,” Lord Vatir said. “Jerriel always insists on staying until everything is loaded and on the road. He’ll catch up sometime after lunch.”

His tone told her he thought Jerriel was either wasting his time or above such mundane duties. It made her like Jerriel better. She just nodded.

They weren’t the only riders on the road. There were several Erabiri men in front of them, and others behind. Ashley turned in the high saddle to look behind. A long line of riders strung out along the road. Some wagons were just maneuvering out of the camp. Getting hundreds of wagons and thousands of men moving was going to be a long process. How saddle sore will I be by lunchtime? And speaking of lunch, since she hadn’t had breakfast, when would lunch time be? her stomach decided to give a loud growl.

Lord Vatir tittered. Ashley had never heard anyone make a sound somewhere between a giggle and snort. She decided it was a titter. She refused to look at him, just combing her fingers through her horse’s brown mane.

“Did my brother forget to feed you?” he asked.

Ashley didn’t know Vatir, but she didn’t like him. He wanted her to ask who his brother was. He called her ‘sister’ and he called the king by his private name, which according to Lord Bodiel, meant he was either related to Jerriel or was a good friend. Somehow, she just couldn’t imagine this man as Jerriel’s brother. Besides, he was older than Jerriel, so he would have inherited the throne. Unless he was Jerriel’s half-brother, and they had the same mother but different fathers? Then he wouldn’t have been in line for the throne. Ashley thought about this until she reluctantly gave in to curiosity. “Who’s your brother?”

He suppressed a smirk a little too late to hide it and widened his eyes at her. “Why, Jerriel, of course.”

“Of course. Half-brother?”

“Indeed. I didn’t realize Jerriel’s little pet Thessian was so intelligent.”

Could he be any more patronizing? Ashley fumed to herself.  No wonder I don’t like him. She bared her teeth in what might have been a smile. “I went to school and everything,” she said sweetly.

His smile turned apologetic. “Forgive me. I’ve been away from home too long. It wears on me. But yes, Jerriel is my father’s son from his second marriage.”

Ashley narrowed her eyes. “I didn’t know Jerriel had a brother. He never mentioned you. Your father was the last king, wasn’t he? Why aren’t you king then?”

“Very clever.” Again, he gave that titter that made her want to grind her teeth. “Some people believe there was a small irregularity in my parents’ marriage.”

Oh, she got it. He was illegitimate, and in Erabir bastards couldn’t wear the crown. She said in as neutral a tone as she could muster, “What a pity for you.”

“Not at all, dear sister. I am still the only other son of my father. The only heir until you produce one.”

Good lord. Why did she suddenly feel like she had a target on her back? She swallowed down the urge to blurt there would be no heirs from her and changed the subject. “So what do you do, Lord Vatir? You mentioned you breed horses? This mare is lovely.”

“Please call me Oniel. May I call you Valdis?”

Valdis wasn’t her name, so she didn’t care if he called me that. “Sure. Tell me about Auriela. How old is she?”

Thankfully, he accepted the change in subject and proceeded to tell her all about the hundreds of horses he had bred. His tone settled into something less patronizing and more knowledgeable as he described his stable and how he decided which stallion should breed which mare and how he trained them. Ashley found it interesting, and a whole lot nicer than the previous conversation. Still, she was relieved when Lord Bodiel joined them an hour later. She was even more relieved that he brought a canteen of water and a bag of dried meat mixed with dried berries.

“I will attend the lady now,” he told Vatir dismissively.

Vatir’s eyes narrowed, but he smiled. “Certainly. It was wonderful to have a chance to get to know you, Valdis.”

Ashley smiled back. “Thank you for lending me Auriela.”

“A loan? No such thing.” He took her hand and bowed over it with a flourish. “A gift, rather, to welcome you to the family, dear sister.”

She bowed her head to hide distaste. “Thank you. That is very generous.”

“Not at all.” Vatir fluttered a hand at Bodiel. “Until later, my lord, my lady.”

He rode off. Ashley waited until he was some distance away before she put a bit of the dried meat into her mouth and chewed. It had a nice flavor, although an unfamiliar one. Not cow, she assumed. She didn’t want to know what it was, so she chewed and drank without asking. After she’d polished off the meat in comfortable silence, she turned to Lord Bodiel.

“Thank you for breakfast,” she said. “I was getting pretty hungry.”

Lord Bodiel bowed his head. “I regret you weren’t fed sooner. The king told the boys to let you sleep, and by the time you woke breakfast was over. No one thought of it until the king told me to bring you travel rations. Please forgive us for our carelessness.”

Ashley smiled at him. “It’s fine. It was a busy morning. Is the camp all packed up?”

“Nearly. The king will be with you within the hour.”

Her tummy did a summersault. She needed to distract herself from the knowledge that soon sexy, scary Jerriel would be here. “Can I ask you some questions?”

He inclined his head. “If I am able, I will answer.”

Ashley studied him, surprised to realize that Bodiel wasn’t so old. She estimated that his son was around fourteen or fifteen. In spite of the gray in his hair, Bodiel’s face looked somewhere between thirty-five and forty.

“Feel free to not answer anything that is too personal or none of my business. First, are you Jerriel’s father’s brother or his mother’s?”

“My sister was married to King Javiel and bore Jerriel to him only ten months after their wedding.”

Ashley rubbed a thumb along the worn leather rein. “Are you related to Lord Vatir?”

A shadow of distaste crossed his face so quickly that she wouldn’t have caught it if she hadn’t been studying him. “No, my lady. I am not.”

“Does Jerriel have any other sisters or brothers?”

“No. My sister died when Jerriel was only three years old, and the king never married again.”

Ashley pondered a little while, wondering how to frame the next question. “Lord Vatir suggested that the marriage between the late king and his first wife wasn’t quite …”

She trailed off because she couldn’t figure out how to politely say they hadn’t been legally married.

“There was no marriage.”

Ashley jerked her head around to stare at the king’s uncle.

“Lord Vatir would like to believe there had been a wedding. He would like all of Erabir to believe there had been a wedding.” His voice was calm and careful. “There was not. Lady Brucila gave birth to a son of the king, but not a royal prince.”

“Oh.” That must burn Vatir’s butt. “Is he Jerriel’s heir?”

“No, he is not. The king’s current heir is his cousin, Prince Suril of Fyrir. He is the son of the late king’s sister, who married Galtiel of Fyrir.”

Fyrir didn’t sound familiar. Had that been a country in the world she’d invented? “Where is Fyrir?”

“Fyrir is a principality of Erabir. It is in the southwest part of the kingdom. It is one of two principalities in the kingdom. The other principality is Iciel in the northern mountains.”

“I didn’t know that.” She pulled a strand of hair out of her mouth. The breeze had picked up and was swooping through her cloak and blowing her hair around. She understood now why the Erabiri braided their hair. She took the elastic off her wrist and gathered her hair into a ponytail before pulling the cloak Jerriel had given her closer, tucking some of it between her thighs and the saddle. “How big is Erabir? And does Jerriel rule over the principalities?”

“Erabir is approximately seven thousand square calculs. The population is just under nine million men and women. Children under twelve are not counted.”

Nine million sounded like a decent population, especially for a pre-industrial world, and not even counting the kids. But how big was a calcul? Was that an acre? A mile? “Is that big?”

“A rider on fast horses, changing mounts every four hours, can travel from one end to the other in seven days.”

Ashley still had no clue how big that was. How far could the Pony Express riders travel in seven days? If she had her phone, she could look it up. “And the principalities? Do the princes rule on their own or does Jerriel rule there too?”

“Prince Suril and Prince Gavril rule their own lands. King Rodir does not make laws or command the armies there. Formally he has the right to take over in either principality, but in reality, no king of Erabir ever would do so. The kingdom crown trumps a principality coronet. But Fyrir and Iciel swear loyalty to the crown as soon as they are raised to their principality seats. They are independent territories who are allies to Erabir. When called on they support the crown with warriors, food, or whatever is needed. In return, Erabir does the same for them.”

Sounded like a feudal system, where a knight swears loyalty to a lord like a baron or earl, and each lord swore fealty to the king. Serfs had no power at all in feudal society.

“Is there friction between Erabir and the principalities?” she asked.

Lord Bodiel smiled. “Not for hundreds of years. There was a time when Erabir, Fyrir and Iciel were all principalities and the ruler of Erabir was called the High Prince. Fyrir and Iciel rebelled against Erabir. There was a war that lasted two years. That is when the Thessian Empire came to Erabir and stole our coastlands. I hope I do not offend you by speaking of it.”

Ashley was confused, not offended. “No, I need to know this. I didn’t write, er, learn this in, um, school. So Erabir used to include the coast of the Blue Ocean?”

“Yes. With a common enemy to face, Fyrir and Iciel agreed that Erabir was primary. That is when we became a kingdom. For generations we fought to keep the Empire out of our lands. I’m sure you know that one hundred and fifty years ago Erabir and Thess made a treaty in which we ceded the coast and one hundred calculs from the coast inland to the Empire and they agreed to stop trying to conquer the rest of Erabir. They called it New Thess. We kept the treaty.”

“Until now?” Ashley asked, trying to sound gentle. “Jerriel isn’t keeping the treaty anymore, is he?”

“Thess broke the treaty. You know full well, lady, that he was captured by the Thess and made a slave, even though he should have been returned to his father.”

“Yeah, I know that.”

“Even so, Jerriel’s father did not attack New Thess as he could have. Even then he held to the treaty. It wasn’t until King Mosir died that Jerriel led his armies east to New Thess.”

“I heard he’s never lost a battle.”

“No, never.” There was simple pride in Bodiel’s voice. “The Thessians call him the Storm King because, like thunder and lightning, he cannot be stopped. Prince Suril of Fyrir is called the Fire Prince and Lord Danir of Iciel is called the Ice Lord. Jerriel is cousin to both of them, so you will no doubt call them Iriel and Jabril in private.”

These names, all ending in -ir or -el or -il, made Ashley’s head spin. Why the heck had I invented such similar sounding names? Plus, they all had two names, which hadn’t been her invention. She was trapped in a game that had started out with Ashley as the dungeon master but which had been taken over by an evil mastermind. How would she ever keep these people straight? Well, if she found a way back home, she wouldn’t need to. That made her think of Maya. Had those guys found her yet? Maybe they were already on their way back with her. That would be great.

“Lord Danir isn’t called Prince?” Ashley asked.

“No, his grandfather Gavril is Prince of Iciel. His title is Lord Heir of Iciel. His father was the Lord Heir, but he died several years ago.”

Ashley slumped in the saddle, trying to keep track of who was who in Jerriel’s family. She’d given up by the time Jerriel joined them. He had braided his hair into one thick rope down his back. It swayed over the horse’s rump with every step. Ashley eyed it with a little envy. After chemo her hair had grown back, but not as thickly. Some strands had extra crimp, so it didn’t shine as lustrously as it had. It was kind of sad that she was envious of a man’s hair. As she stared at him, she noticed he was staring right back.

“Everybody get on the road okay?” she asked brightly.

Jerriel nodded. “One wagon needed to replace an axle, and another lost a wheel, but we are all moving now.”

It was like wagon trains on the Oregon Trail. Would they cast off family heirloom furniture to cross rivers? Ashley considered and decided that no, this army was experienced. They knew how to pack for travel. Besides, how much furniture did they carry with them? Cots and chests? Maybe some folding tables and chairs. And loot. Ashley would bet the Erabiri army had taken plunder from the conquered city.

“Come, wife. Let’s ride ahead a little so we can talk more privately.”

Lord Bodiel excused himself. A tremor of unease shimmered down Ashley’s back, but she followed Jerriel into a jarring trot which told her very plainly she was going to be saddle sore. They moved into a canter, which was much better. As they passed other Erabir on the road, they inclined their heads deeply to Jerriel. Jerriel slowed to a walk and Ashley was grateful for Auriela’s gentle walking gait. She leaned forward to pat the mare’s neck.

“You met my brother,” Jerriel said, watching her.

“Yes, I did. He gave me this horse.”

“What did you think of him?”

Ashley slid a quick glance over at Jerriel’s face. It was completely empty of expression. “Well, he knows a lot about horses.” That was polite and noncommittal, wasn’t it?

Jerriel did the raised eyebrow thing at her. “He is known as one of the best horse breeders and trainers in Erabir. What did you think of him?”

Ashley hesitated, then decided to be honest. “I don’t know him. I only spoke with him for an hour. But I’m not sure I like him.” Actually, she was sure she didn’t like him. “He seems …” Delusional? Full of himself? Dangerous?

He reached out a quick hand and touched her arm. “Do not trust him, Valdis. He is not a friend to either of us.”

Ashley nodded, not very much surprised. “Then why is he here? You should have left him in Erabir.”

“Leave him unsupervised at home without me?” His smile was not pleasant. “I think not.”

Oh. “You must believe in the old saying ‘Keep your friends close and your enemies closer’.”

“Whole heartedly.” His smile warmed. “Just be careful. Do not allow yourself to be alone with him.”

Ashley glanced back and found the two guards riding a few yards away. “That would be hard, since I seem to have picked up a couple of shadows.”

“You will always have guards, but they will not follow you into your tent or mine.”

At least she would have some privacy. She wondered, since they were supposed to be married, why they had separate tents, but she didn’t want to give him any ideas by asking. “That’s good.”

“Valdis.” He nudged his horse closer to hers. He was already taller than her but on his bigger horse, she had to crane her head back to look at him. “Let us stop to eat. We can spread your cloak out under that tree there.”

Getting off the horse for a while sounded appealing. And this was a public place, so he wouldn’t try anything. Somewhat reassured, she followed him to the tree about fifty yards from the road and managed to get off the horse without falling. It was close, though. She had to cling to the stirrup with her free hand for a minute before she was able to move, very stiffly, to wrap her reins around a lower branch.

Jerriel looked sincerely concerned. “Are you sore, Valdis? Here, lean on me.”

She liked Valdis better than ‘wife’ but not by very much. She put her hand on the forearm he offered. The muscles there were taut and strong. Down, girl, Ashley told herself firmly. Handsome is only skin deep. Remember what he did yesterday in that church.

He used his other hand to unclasp her cloak and flapped it out onto the ground. With strength that seemed to cost him nothing, he picked her up and lowered her so she could sit on the cloak without collapsing. He left her for a minute to go back to his horse and take something from behind the saddle. He came back with a square package of waxed linen that he opened after he sank down beside her. Very close beside her. Ashley swallowed.

“More travel rations,” he said apologetically. “In a few days we will reach Herzborg, and we will re-supply there.”

Herzborg. Where had she heard of that? Oh, yeah. The woman in the pen talked about that place. “They surrendered to you, right?”

“They were wise.” He laid out the dried cracker-like bread, the dried meat, and a handful of dried fruit. “I have no cup. We will need to share the canteen.”

“No problem.” Ashley accepted his canteen and took a long sip. “How far will we travel today?”

“Until the sun sets.”

They ate in silence for a while. Jerriel didn’t seem like the type to hand feed his girlfriends, so she was glad he didn’t try it. When they had finished eating, Jerriel wrapped the leftovers back into the waxed linen and took it back to his horse. Then he came back and settled crossed legged in front of her again. Their knees almost touched.

“You are not wearing a veil,” he said. “Did you not like the ones I brought for you?”

She remembered the rectangles of light cloth in the chest. “Am I supposed to wear one? Do Erabiri women wear veils?”

“No, but Thessian women do. I brought them in case you preferred to wear them.”

That was considerate of him. In her story Thessian women did wear veils when they left their houses. Valdis had just reached the age where she would have to wear a veil when she’d first encountered the baker’s foreign slave boy.

“I’d rather not.”

He smiled at her, a surprisingly sweet smile. He was so beautiful just then that her lungs forgot to breathe. He was every bit as handsome as the imaginary Jerriel had been, and even more so when he wasn’t acting arrogant and cruel. It wouldn’t be hard to fall for him. But Ashley could not do that. She had to find Maya and get back home. When he picked up her hand and pressed it to his heart she looked wildly around for the guards or any other spectators.

“Relax, wife. We are alone.”

“But still in public,” Ashley pointed out, aware of how anxious her voice sounded. “Someone could come by any second.”

“I am touching only your hand. It is you who are touching me.”

“And whose idea was that?”

He laughed. Ashley stared. It was the first real laugh she’d heard from him. “Sweet Valdis,” he murmured.

In her story, his character had called the heroine ‘sweet Valdis’ all the time. In the story he had been sweet too. Kind of like he was being now. Ashley couldn’t quite forget the warrior king beheading his enemies, but this Jerriel seemed different, gentler. “I wish you would call me Ashley.”

A faint crease appeared between his brows. “Why? And do not tell me more of your lies.”

Somehow Ashley managed to not grind her teeth. One minute he was sweet, and the next minute he reverted to his arrogant self. She was inspired by an answer that wouldn’t be a lie. “Think of it like a private name. In public I call you Rodir, but in private I call you Jerriel. In public you can call me Valdis, but when it’s just us you can call me Ashley.”

The hint of a frown deepened into the real thing. “I have always called you Valdis.”

“I know,” she whispered. “But I wish you would call me Ashley. No one else will call me that except you.” And Maya, she added silently. “Please? A private name for private times.”

The frown smoothed away. “Very well. Ashley.”

He looked at her mouth and leaned in slowly enough for her to protest if she wanted to, but she didn’t. She didn’t want to protest, that is. He was going to kiss her. Ashley had never had a steady boyfriend, but she’d dated and had a few kisses. A couple had been nice, and one had been awful, and one had been wonderful. Part of Ashley, the part that thought he was handsome, wanted to know what Jerriel’s kiss would be like.

It was light, almost casual, a quick brush of warm lips over hers. Now she protested. Before he could move away, Ashley put her hand on the back of his neck under his braid and pulled him back in. This kiss was deeper, longer, and hotter. Ashley almost opened her mouth invite his tongue in but remembering he was the Storm King dumped a bucket of cold water over her head. Besides, she reminded herself, Maya and I are getting out of here as soon as possible. I shouldn’t encourage him. She jerked away.

“Sorry,” she blurted. “I shouldn’t have done that.”

“Why not?” His tone was languid but his eyes were hot. “I enjoyed it.”

Ashley felt blood rush to her cheeks. Darn her fair skin. “So did I,” she admitted. “But I shouldn’t have done it.”

Jerriel pulled back, studying her face. “Do you think a woman shouldn’t enjoy pleasure as much as a man?”

Ashley tried to force the blush to go away. That was an epic fail. “I think a woman should enjoy sex with the right man.” She was going to go on, but Jerriel spoke over me.

“Is not a husband the right man?”

“Yeah, of course he would be. But what I was going to say was that we are out in the open. Anyone could see us.”

In fact, a few horsemen were on the road right now. She jerked her head to indicate them.

“I’m hardly about to ravish you in full view of my army.”

Ashley blew out a breath. “I know. I’m the one who made the kiss more. Can we talk about something else? Or should we get going?”

“Stay. There is something I need to tell you.”

She settled back down.

He picked up her hand and swept his thumb back and forth over her knuckles. “You have not asked about your father.”

“My dad?” Concern niggled under her skin. She hadn’t seen her dad for a couple of years. Her illness had put a strain on her parents’ marriage, but he had stuck around until she was cancer free. It wasn’t until a couple of months later, after her nineteenth birthday, that he left. Now he was re-married and Ashley had a little half-brother. “What about him?”

“The Lieutenant-Governor is dead.” He watched her steadily out of blank black eyes. “If it gives you any comfort, he died fighting. He did not run or try to hide. He did not beg for his life.”

“Oh. Well, that’s good, I suppose.” Never having met the man, Ashley felt no grief. Did Jerriel expect her to cry? “We, uh, we weren’t close.”

“No, I know how he treated you. He was a fool to hold you responsible for your mother’s sin.”

“Um, yeah.” In her story, Valdis’ mother had fallen in love with another man from her own country and left her daughter behind when she ran away with him. Poor Valdis.

He leaned closer again, black eyes intense, frown terrifying. “Do not think you could ever leave me. I would not be like your father and let you go. I would follow and bring you back.”

“Jeez, Jerriel!” Ashley scooted back. “I’m not like that.”

He softened. “No, I know. You are brave and honorable.”

Inwardly, she squirmed. She was leaving him as soon as she found a way back home, and there was no way he could follow and bring her back. Was there? No, surely not. “Maybe we should get going?”

“Very well. I must attend the army. My uncle will ride with you the rest of the day, and I will see you this evening in camp.”

Here it is, September. This is the month (in North Dakota, at least) when the temps get cooler. After a long, hot summer I just *love* fall. Of course, it is not fall-like yet. The average high for today is 77 (it was 84 today) but the average high for September 30 is 64. So a big change in only a month!

Tomorrow is my 5th of 69 chemo treatments. I am getting sick of chemo. 🙁 But I should be done with it on September 20. So I just have to hang on a few more weeks. When I am done I am going to buy myself a treat. I deserve it!

Here is the next chapter in The Storm King. Enjoy!

Chapter Six

Oh, my God. She should have expected this. But who could expect any of this to be happening? Ashley gulped, thinking, I have to set him straight. “But, Jerriel,” she began, but broke off to cough some more. She cleared her throat, eyes watering from the smoke. Totally from the smoke. “I am not your wife.”

He raised one hand to touch the pearl pendant that lay over his breastbone. “Did you not give me a necklace, and did I not accept it?”

 “No, that wasn’t me. I’m not who you think I am.”

He lifted one brow. “No?”

“No, I’m not Valdis. Look, I get that this will sound crazy, but I’m not who you think I am. My name is Ashley Johnson.”

His jaw was a hard, straight line in the faint moonlight. “I know you, wife.” Fast as a striking snake, his hand whipped out, flung the corner of the blanket back and yanked down the neck of her shirt. “I recognize that scar below your collarbone. I was there the day your father gave it to you.”

Ashley slapped his hand away. He let go but didn’t step back, so she did, pulling the blanket back up. “That’s from my port. For chemo.”

But she knew what he thought it was. In her story Valdis was found alone with Jerriel by her father, who had whipped her with his belt. The buckle had swung around and cut her upper chest a little. She guessed the cut could have looked like the scar left behind after the chemo port was removed.

“Why do you lie, Valdis? Have you taken another husband? You said you had not.”

His face was cool and still, but she wondered if Jerriel was angry. “No, single here, thank you very much! That’s not why I say I’m not your wife.” She stuck her free hand into her still-damp hair and gave it a tug. “Let me explain. A long time ago I was really sick. Like, everyone thought I could die. I was too sick to do anything. I couldn’t go to school, or hang out at the mall, or go to the pool.

She peeked at his face, but it told her nothing. She hurried on.

“So I spent almost all my time in bed or laying on the couch. To entertain myself I started making up stories. Just for fun, you know? And one of the stories was about a boy named Jerriel and a girl named Valdis. He was a native prince, but he had been captured by his enemies and made a slave. She was the daughter of the governor of a colony of a distant empire who became his friend and helped him escape.” She blinked her eyes because the smoke was really irritating. The tears that welled had nothing to do with his hard expression. “And my best friend since kindergarten loved my stories. Maya. This afternoon, I mean, I guess it was yesterday afternoon… or maybe the day before?” She honestly couldn’t remember. “Well, we were on campus, and I was going to take my last final when suddenly, out of absolutely nowhere, we just, um, kinda fell through to here. I mean, to that city. And the Erabiri army was there. I didn’t know who they were at first. Because I thought you were all make believe. Because, you know, I’d written a story about you. I mean, a story about a make-believe boy I named Jerriel.”

She had to stop babbling and quit saying ‘I mean’ in every sentence. She looked up at Jerriel. He reached out a hand. A sudden flash of memory made her shudder, she saw that same hand holding a sword that lopped off heads, blood splashing over his hand and arm and puddling on the floor. His hand now was clean. The cuff of his shirt was free of blood, his fingernails neatly cut short and no longer rimmed in black. He cupped her cheek with that hand, and it was warm and gentle.

She swallowed and continued on.

“Maya and I were taken prisoner and put into a pen. But the next morning she was taken away by a man because she had blond hair and I was taken to that church building where you ki– I mean, where I first saw you. So, I need to find Maya. She doesn’t belong here. Neither do I.” Horror clamped around her heart. “And if the city is burning, then what happened to her? She could be burning alive!”

“Peace. Everyone alive was given time to leave the city.”

“But I don’t know what’s happened to her!”

“Wife.” Jerriel’s thumb brushed over the corner of her lips. “You are distraught. You need more rest.”

Rest meant a bed. The bed in her tent was narrow, too narrow for them to ‘play’ in, right? She searched his face by moonlight, all too aware of how handsome he was. Ashley was a virgin but that didn’t mean she couldn’t appreciate a handsome face or bare, muscular chest. And Jerriel was the most attractive man she’d ever seen. But this was no time for that. She pulled away. “I need to find Maya.”

He stepped so close she could feel the warmth of his bare chest against the blanket covering her “No.”

“No?” Ashley was so shocked she forgot to back away from him. In that moment she couldn’t care less how handsome he was. Her voice claimed an octave. “What do you mean ‘no’?”

“No. You will not leave me to look for a Thesswoman. We bring no Thessians back to Erabir.”

“I’m a Thessian! I mean, Valdis is a Thessian.”

He pressed even closer to her. “My wife is no Thessian.”

She stepped back so quickly she stumbled and would have fallen if he hadn’t caught her arm. Luckily, it was the good arm. She tugged fruitlessly to get free. “I’m not your wife.”

His smile was chilling. “Come along, wife. It is cold and you need to rest.”

Arguing with him was as useless as trying to pull her wrist from his grip. Ashley attempted both for half a mile before she gave up. He towed her back to camp without ever even looking at her, and led her to the flap of her tent, where he spoke to the guards.

“Be sure to follow my wife whenever she leaves the tent. She is not to leave the camp.”

The guards both bowed. “Yes, Lord King.”

Jerriel gave her a cool smile, inclined his head, and left.

Curse him. Ashley pushed past the tent flap into the dim light of the lamp Jerriel had lit earlier and fumed silently. She had to find her friend. Maya was alone in this crazy world. Ashley might not want to be here in the Erabiri camp, but at least she had clothes and food and medical care. Where was Maya? Was she hungry? Cold? Was she even safe? But how could Ashley find her when Jerriel was being a jerk? A heroine in a romance novel would find a way to escape, find Maya, and get back home.

She turned the chair Jerriel had sat in back to the table and plopped down, staring blindly at the lamp. Could she escape? She mulled it over and decided that she wouldn’t be able to. If Ashley tried to do that, she would end up lost, frozen, and probably dead before she found Maya. And Jerriel had ordered the guards to not let her leave camp.

Maybe she could talk that kid Danior into letting her go back to l0ok for Maya. Or she could ask him and his friends to take her. If she got him to think Jerriel had okayed it, and she took her guards along, then it would work. Yeah, that would work. It would have to work. Maya had always been there for her. She would not abandon her.

Cold and tired, Ashley took off the shoes and pants and spread the blanket back over the bed before crawling into it. She couldn’t do anything for Maya right now, so she thought about the other big thing on her plate: Jerriel and his insistence that they were married. Her mind got stuck on his intention to ‘play’ with her. Like it was a warmup to the main event! Well, part of Ashley sat up with interest at the idea of making out with him. Who wouldn’t? He was drop dead gorgeous. The rest of her wanted to get as far away from him as she could. Handsome or not, he was terrifying, a killer, a conqueror eaten up by his need for vengeance.

Ashley thought she’d be up all night worrying about Maya and the marriage question, but she dropped off in only minutes.

The next morning, Ashley was woken way too early by a voice calling from outside her tent.

“Lady? Lady, we are ready to dismantle your tent. Lady, are you awake?”

Ashley didn’t recognize the voice. It didn’t sound like Danior and certainly not Jerriel.
She rolled out of the narrow bed, stuffed her feet into shoes, and stumbled to the door flap. She stuck her head out and glared blearily around. Several teenagers stood a few yards away, facing the two guards on either side of the door.

“My lady,” one of the boys said. Ashley thought he was one of the bathwater brigade last night. “The king told us to let you sleep another hour, but we must take down your tent now.”

She looked around again and saw that the other tents were either down or in the process of being taken down. She supposed she could argue, or waste time asking questions, but decided it would be better to get dressed before demanding answers. “Okay, give me a couple of minutes. I’ll be right out.”

She grabbed the bra and panties from the back of the chair. Still slightly damp. Yuck. And cold. Double yuck. She struggled into them, teeth chattering, and put on the pants she’d worn last night and selected a tunic from the chest. Her arm was stiff and sore, so she mixed up the painkiller and drank it down. After running the comb through her hair, she put it carefully back in its case, put the case in the chest, and hurried outside. In just those few minutes the camp had been transformed. There were wagons being loaded with blocks of canvas and chests. The larger tent beside hers was coming down. She’d bet it was Jerriel’s tent.

The trampled grass under her shoes was crisp with frost. She wished she’d grabbed the blanket from the bed. She was considering going back into the tent to get it when she saw Jerriel duck around a wagon and come toward her. Ashley watched him, struck by his lithe stride, the cat-like grace he moved with, the way his broad shoulders tapered down to a narrow waist. His hair was pulled back today in a thick ponytail that swayed behind him as he moved. His eyes were again outlined with kohl. He should have looked girlish, but he didn’t. Not at all. He wore black again, tough pants, leather boots and a vest studded with steel discs over a black shirt. A sword hilt shone silver at his hip in a black sheath. He had a bundle under his arm.

“Wife.”

She almost called him Jerriel, but there were a lot of people moving not far from around us. “Good morning, King Rodir,” she responded stiffly.

“You could call me husband,” he suggested. When Ashley stayed stubbornly silent, he smiled. It made him even more handsome, and somehow even scarier. “The days are growing shorter and colder. Even now, you shiver.” He lifted the bundle and let it unfurl. It was a thick cloak of chocolate brown wool with metallic gold embroidered bees in flight down the front edges and along the front of the hood. “For you.”

It looked luxurious and she was cold. Ashley loved the embroidered bees. She let him step behind her and put it over her shoulders. The weight alone made her immediately feel warmer. He stepped in front of her to fasten the gold clasp at the neck. Ashley froze as he smoothed his hands over her shoulders. He might have been smoothing the fabric, but it felt more like a caress. She stepped hurriedly back. He followed, hands still on her shoulders. The sensation of his thumbs stroking over her throat got Ashley’s blood pumping. She didn’t really need the cloak anymore; she was plenty warm now.

“Thank you for the cloak. The bees are really cool,” she blurted. “Why are the tents coming down?”

“We are moving camp.” He didn’t move away, nor did he lift his hands from her shoulders. “The horses have grazed the grass to the roots here. We need to move to fresh grass. This afternoon you will ride with me so that we will have time to learn one another again.” His voice dropped to a sensuous whisper. “Wife.”

Ashley had tensed when she thought they would leave the city behind, then relaxed when he said the horses needed better grazing. But his purred ‘learn one another again’ made her even more tense than before.

“I’m not your wife. I’m not Valdis.”

The early morning sun lit his eyes, showing they were not solid black but a very dark brown iris around a black pupil. Just as she had described them in her story. They were beautiful and scary staring into hers.

“I don’t know why you lie to me, but I command that you stop.”

“I’m not lying! Jerriel—”

“Hush. Not another word.”

Beautiful and scary was a good description for him. The Storm King. She swallowed and changed the subject. “So we’re not going far?” Going away from here would be bad. She couldn’t sneak back to the city to find Maya if they went far.

“Not far. An army loaded down by wagons and loot doesn’t move fast. We will not reach Erabir for nearly a month.”

Unease cut through her. “We’re not leaving the city behind?”

“We are. My business here is finished. I look forward to having you home in Erabir with me.” Those cold black eyes heated.

Ashley froze again for a split second because she remembered what he would do to her when they reached his home. “But Maya,” she began.

His face hardened. “You still harp on her?” he snapped.

Ashley almost cowered but stood firm. “Yes! She’s my friend and she’s alone here.”

Jerriel stepped so close his front leaned against hers. Ashley wavered for a second but didn’t step back, only lifting her chin to glare up at him. His icy gaze bored into her for a long minute. She made herself stand her ground. It was hard. She was just about to collapse when Jerriel spoke.

“Very well, wife. Let’s make a trade.”

“A trade?”

“Yes. You stop lying to me, and I will send some of my men to find your friend.”

Ashley opened her mouth. Closed it. So many thoughts bombarded her she couldn’t keep them straight. She wasn’t lying. She wasn’t Valdis. But if they were headed back to Erabir she would never be able to get away to find Maya. Agreeing to this bargain would be agreeing that she was his wife. Not agreeing would leave Maya to fend for herself in this crazy world. Ashley gripped the edges of the cloak so hard her knuckles hurt.

“They will find her and bring her back to me?”

Now Jerriel was silent with his thoughts for a minute before dipping his head. “Will you agree to accept my right to touch you as a husband would?”

Heat flared inconveniently between her thighs. “First base is okay. Second base is okay. Nothing else.”

He looked blank. “First base?” he growled.

Was she actually going to do this?  Is steam rising from my cheeks? I am probably redder than a tomato. “Um. Kissing. Some petting. Above the waist, I mean. No, um, no touching below my waist.”

He considered, and all the while his thumbs were caressing the sides of her neck. He looked as cool as a cucumber. She felt like someone had dropped her into an overachieving sauna. “I will be able to touch you above the waist whenever I please.”

“Not in public!”

“Of course not. When we are alone. And when your friend has been found and brought here, then I will touch you below the waist.”

“N-n-no,” Ashley stuttered.

“With only my hand.” His smile mocked me. “Do you want your friend found?”

“That’s blackmail!”

“You dicker like a merchant trying to get the best bargain. This way we both get what we want. But I will get what I want eventually, wife, regardless of any bargain we make.” His smile was cold. Ashley hated that smile. “Agree, and this will be much more pleasant for you.”

Regardless of any bargain? More pleasant for me? What did that mean? Would he rape her? Ashley shuddered. The boy Jerriel would never have acted like this with Valdis. Maybe this stranger with Jerriel’s name thought being married to someone gave him the right to force sex on her?

Ashley stiffened her spine. “Will you rape me?”

It’s been a week! On Wednesday 8/14/24 I had my next chemo treatment. Well, I had PART of my chemo treatment. My blood count was too low to give the oxaliplatin, but I did get the Bevacizumab and the Leucovorin, and they hooked me up to the chemo pump with Fluorouracil (called 5FU. I kinda like the FU name. Seems appropriate somehow). I wore the blasted pump until Friday when I went back to have it removed. Anyway, I did not have to get the Neulasta shot again which was wonderful. I have been extremely tired, but no pain this time. I’ll take it! I have only two treatments left for this round. The last time I had chemo in 2020 I remember thinking that I’d much rather have chemo again than radiation. I have changed my mind!!!

On a lighter note, I’ve been making lap quilts for the cancer center to give away. I will prost some pics of them over the weekend. One, in a very striking purple and yellow combo, will be a giveaway in my newsletter at the beginning of September. Maybe by then it will be cool enough to enjoy a quilt!

Here is the second part of Chapter 5 of the Storm King. Enjoy!

Chapter Five-Part 2

Ashley realized she must have fallen asleep, because when she opened her eyes, the tent was nearly totally black.  She could swear someone was staring at her in the dark. “Who’s there?” she called sharply.

Then, in almost a whisper, she said, “Jerriel?”

A low voice replied. “Of course, it is I.” The voice slid over her like a caress. “Who else would dare sit in your tent and watch you sleep?”

That at wasn’t creepy. Ashley suppressed a shudder.  No, not at all.

A light flared and she could see Jerriel sitting in one of the chairs that had been at the table, but now was turned toward the bed. Not the one with her makeshift laundry drying over it. The tent was so small his knee was only inches from her shoulder. He turned to fiddle with a lamp on the table behind him. His thick hair was loose around his face, making him look younger. In fact, with the yellow glow of the lamp gilding him, he was mouth wateringly handsome. Light gleamed along his high cheekbones and the generous curve of his lower lip. His eyelashes were so long and thick they threw shadows. He must have taken a bath and washed his hair and face. Even without the kohl outlining his eyes, they were large and lustrous and quite beautiful. He was more handsome than any movie star she’d ever seen on the screen. With his black shirt hanging open over a sculpted chest and rock-hard abs, he looked like a guy that modeling agencies would fight over to see who got to represent him to the underwear companies. It was cold in the tent now, but Ashley still felt the need to fan herself.

She took a steadying breath, pushing herself up in bed with her good arm. “Jerriel,” she began, but corrected herself. “King Rodir.”

“No, Valdis.” The long black hair swayed as he shook his head. “When we are alone like this, you should call me Jerriel.”

“Right. Well, I need you to help me find my friend.”

He tilted his head slightly, one straight brow lifting. “Your friend?”

Ashley didn’t let his forbidding tone stop her. “Yeah, Maya. She’s my best friend, but your army—I mean, we were separated.” Ashley was sure she didn’t want to accuse his army of anything. “I need to find her.”

“She was in the city?”

“Yeah. We were captured together, but she was made to leave me in the corral with the others.”

Something in his face hardened. “Indeed.”

“Yeah, and I need to find her, okay? I think she will probably still be around the city, so if you could help me go back there …” She trailed off because he was shaking his head again. “What? Why not? Come on, I have to find her!”

He rose from the chair and held out his hand. “Come with me.”

She eyed the hand suspiciously. “Where?”

“Come.” Command rasped in his voice. “Do you deny me?”

She ignored his hand but climbed out of bed. The shirt and pants she’d slept in were wrinkled and quickly losing warmth as the cold air in the tent seeped through them. She stumbled trying to keep her balance while trying to stuff her feet into the leather shoes but when Jerriel tried to give her support Ashley recoiled away. He dropped his hand with a stony face. Dang it all. Did I hurt his feelings? If she wanted his help finding Maya, she shouldn’t turn him away. Too late now, though. She picked up the sling from the chest at the foot of the bed, put it over her neck, and gingerly slipped her arm into its cradle. Jerriel plucked the blanket off the bed and held it out to her.

“It’s cold, wife,” he said in a voice even colder than the air. “Wrap up in this. Follow me.”

Yup, Ashley thought uneasily, I pissed him off. She draped the blanket over her shoulders and held it closed under her chin as he held the tent flap open. He flicked his fingers at the two men guarding the tent. It was probably to tell them to stay put, because they settled back into guard positions. There was a chilly breeze that lifted Jerriel’s hair, but he wore only his open shirt. Didn’t he feel the cold?

Ashley followed Jerriel through the silent camp and past the horses. They passed a couple of teenaged boys who had bedded down with the horses and a sentry who challenged them until he recognized Jerriel. They went about a mile past the camp before Jerriel stopped and waited for Ashley to come beside him. He lifted an arm to point to a dim glow on the horizon. Ashley squinted at it. Was that the sun rising? Had she slept straight through to dawn?

“What time is it?” she asked.

“A few hours after midnight.”

She took a breath to ask more, but the breeze shifted, and noxious smoke made her cough. “What is that smell?”

“Grimstaborg.” Chilling satisfaction rang in Jerriel’s voice as he looked out at the glow. “Burning, just as I swore it would.”

Ashley shuddered. It could have been the cold, but Ashley knew it was from the horror skittering down her spine. Jerriel turned to face her. She noticed the pearl pendant gleam against his chest.

“Listen to me carefully, wife. Ten years ago, I took a vow to be avenged for my humiliation at the hands of the Thessians. I swore I would return with an army and destroy Grimstaborg. Now it is burning. I promised to kill the men responsible for making me a slave. Now they are dead. I swore to make Emris Baker my slave. Now he is. I promised I would find my wife and take her home with me. And I will.”

Jerriel took a step toward her, the intensity on his face deepening to something almost feral. “My advisors urged me to repudiate you and take a wife from Erabir. But I do not break my promises. You were the only Thessian in that cursed city to treat me with any respect, any kindness. I gave you my word that I would protect you when I returned with my army to avenge myself. You offered me your bridal pledge and I accepted it, although then I had no return gift for you. I want children from you. Sons and daughters to carry on my line.”

Holy crap. Cold night air touched Ashley’s teeth when her mouth fell open. He thinks we’re married! He would want to have sex. That’s what people did to have kids. Ashley didn’t know what he saw on her face, but his softened slightly in a half smile.

“We do not know each other any longer. We will wait until we are back in Erabir to fully consummate our marriage.” The smile grew. “But we can play with each other until then. We will touch one another, taste one another. That way, when we are home, you will be ready to accept me in your bed.”

Wow. I hadn’t realized how long it had been since I posted. I am very sorry. My excuse is chemo. It is really kicking my behind. It is the same chemo I had 4 years ago. My first treatment in mid-July went pretty well. My treatment at the end of July left me very sick and tired and with a horrible headache and a fever. My third treatment was a wreck. I had an allergic reaction. Actually 2 different allergic reactions. They ended up stopping one of the chemo drugs. I had that same treatment 10 times with no real trouble but now my body said “Uh-uh. That’s enough of that, thank you very much.” On Friday when I went back to have the chemo pump removed they gave me a Neulasta shot to build up my white blood cells which were very low. And that was a nightmare of bone pain and fatigue that lasted 8 days. Even now I am exhausted. But tomorrow we’re going to try the same chemo again, but very slowly. I will be there ALL day.

OK, that is enough of whining. OMN to Chapter 5 of the Storm King!

Chapter Five

The camp was a military camp, with thousands of small tents laid out in neat rows over what must be a couple of square miles of trampled grass. How big was the Erabiri army? A large herd of horses grazed outside the camp, watched over by more teenaged boys. They stared wide-eyed at Ashley while they took the horses. Ashley walked in a distinctly un-regal waddle beside Jerriel’s uncle into the camp. It hadn’t been a long ride, but her knees still thought there was a horse between them and were reluctant to touch. The other Erabiri accompanied her through the open lanes that divided the tent city into segments, until they came to a small tent beside a much larger one. Most of the tents they passed were rectangular pup tents, big enough for two men to sleep in, but not tall enough for them to stand in. These two tents were square, and high enough for even a tall man to stand up in. Jerriel’s uncle held the flap of the smaller tent open for her.

“Go in and make yourself comfortable,” he urged. “I will have a healer and food brought for you at once.”

“Thanks.”

Ashley was short enough to not have to duck to enter the tent. It was about eight feet square, and the center pole was at least twelve feet tall. The ceiling sloped to a height of about five and a half feet from the ground at the walls. The furnishings looked comfortable enough, for a tent. A narrow bed, two feet away from the center pole was neatly made with a dark blue wool blanket and a fat pillow encased in snowy white linen. A small table was on the other side of the center pole, with two chairs tucked under it. The canvas tarp floor was covered with a thick rug in swirling patterns of red and blue. At the foot of the bed was a wooden chest. Ashley looked around. Compact. Utilitarian. Saved from boring by the rich colors of the rug.

A voice called from outside. “Lady, may we enter?”

“Come in,” she called.

Jerriel’s uncle came in with another man. “Water is being heated so you can bathe, and food will be brought. This is Healer Moskir.”

Moskir was the oldest Erabiri she had seen. His hair, only down to the tops of his shoulders, was iron gray streaked with silver, held back from his face in two narrow braids over each of his ears. The rest hung loose. His brown face was lined, but he was slender and graceful. And bossy.

“Thank you, Lord Bodiel,” he said dismissively. “I will attend the lady.”

Ah. Jerriel’s uncle was Bodiel. At least in public. Unless he wasn’t part of the royal family. He’d said only the royal family had private and public names. Lord Bodiel made a slight bow and left the tent. The healer advanced on Ashley with firm steps. He was in her face before she realized he’d come so close. She backed up until her butt hit the center tent pole.

“Now then, woman, where are you hurt?” His imperious black eyes ran over her with a barely hidden sneer. She was suddenly aware of her torn and filthy dress, limp hair, and blood-stained shoes.

“My elbow. It’s not broken or anything.”

“I am the healer, not you, so don’t diagnose yourself.”

Geez, his bedside manner could use some work. Most of the doctors Ashley had known had been compassionate. Or at least they hadn’t sneered at her. She almost apologized, but he annoyed her. Not that she was actually Jerriel’s wife or anything, but everyone seemed to accept that she was, so shouldn’t this guy be a little more polite to his king’s wife?

At least his hands were gentle when he took her arm and felt along the joint. “Please sit on the table.”

He pulled out a chair and offered a hand to support her while she stepped up and settled on the table.

“I will need to cut the sleeve.” This time Moskir’s sneer was directed at her gown. “I assume you won’t think it a loss?”

Ashley kicked at the hem of the dress, regretting that the lavish embroidery there had been stained by dirt and blood and torn beyond repair. “Not much can be done to save this, so I guess not.”

Although what she would wear after her bath she didn’t know. Putting the filthy dress back on wouldn’t be nice. She watched while he retrieved a pair of bent scissors and used them to cut through the sleeve from the cuff to nearly the shoulder. The sudden freedom from the tight constricting sleeve was almost painful. She drew a shallow breath to force back a moan. The healer looked at the elbow thoroughly. He carefully bent her arm back and forth. He probed the swollen skin. He pursed his lips while he made low humming noises. She peeked at the elbow and winced at the sight of the deep bruise. She must have been suppressing the pain, or at least ignoring it, because now that she had seen her elbow, it hurt.

“Quite a nasty bruise,” Moskir said, almost gently. “I imagine it is painful. I will make you a sling to support it and I will give you a pain deadener. Add half the powder to a full glass of water. You should drink it after you eat, and then rest. Be sure to drink the full glass. Tomorrow morning you can add the remainder to another glass of water and drink it if needed.”

“Okay.”

The healer opened his pouch again and brought out a long narrow bag full of some orange powder. He carefully tipped out about a teaspoon of it into a small paper cone and twisted the wide end closed. He laid it on the table beside her and retrieved a length of sturdy white fabric from his pouch. He made some cuts and knotted it before looping it around Ashley’s arm and over her neck. He made some adjustments to the fit and then nodded.

“Is that the proper angle for comfort?”

Ashley allowed her elbow to rest fully in the sling without trying to hold the weight herself. “I think it is perfect.”

“Excellent,” he said and offered a hand to help her down from the table. “Remember, half of the pain deadener tonight, and half tomorrow morning. I will come again tomorrow night to check on you.”

“How much do I owe you,” she asked, wondering how she could possibly pay him. Other than this filthy rag of a dress she owned nothing.

For the first time he smiled. “I am employed by the king. Payment is not necessary.”

“Oh, well. Thank you very much.”

He inclined his head, picked up his pouch and left the tent. A moment later a voice called from outside.

“It is I, Danior, with your supper and bathwater. May we enter?”

“Sure.”

Danior turned out to be Lord Bodiel’s son. He led a procession of teenaged boys. One carried a large collapsible tub and got it set up next to the bed. Another half dozen boys paraded in carrying buckets of steaming water they dumped into the tub. Another boy carried a tray with a plate and a ceramic jug which he placed on the small table. Danior laid a towel and washcloth over the back of one of the chairs and put a fist-sized linen bag on the table.

The boys bowed and left, leaving Danior behind. The teenager extended a lean brown hand like a magician pulling a rabbit out of a hat. “Soap, towels and food. Is there anything else you need, lady?”

Ashley looked down at the once-ivory dress. “I need something to put on after my bath.”

Danior’s creamy brown cheeks flushed. Oh dear, was that a risqué thing to say? “M-my cousin the king brought clothing for you,” he managed to say with only a brief break to treble in his voice. He waved at the chest at the foot of the bed. “All that is in there is yours.”

“Mine?”

“Yes, lady. The king brought all this for you. The tent, the clothes, and other things.”

Wow. “Then I guess that’s all I need.”

He bowed. “Just call when you are ready for the bath to be removed.”

The poor kid sped out of the tent like he was afraid she would attack him. Curious, she went over to the chest and opened it to reveal a blaze of color. She blinked. The Erabiri men wore black, brown and gray. None had worn vivid colors. Mindful of her dirty fingers, she went to the tub and washed them. Then she cautiously picked up garments made of brick red, emerald green, sunny yellow, and sky blue. The top layer was knee-length tunics of wool or cotton cut in the front and back from the hem to almost the waist. Some of the collars stood up like a mandarin collar, made stiff by thick embroidery. Others were boat-necked or scoop necked. She counted six of them. Beneath them were four pairs of loose trousers in sturdier fabrics like heavy linen. They were also darker in color, like purplish-brown, dark red, and navy blue.

Beneath those was a dress. It was gorgeous, made of heavy silk brocade in shades of fiery red and orange. Ashley stood and held it up against herself. The hem, stiffened by a broad band of gold metallic embroidery, hit her just above the ankle. The loose sleeves were three quarter length, ending in a wide bell edged with the same embroidery. It was dress fit for a princess, similar to what she’d seen queens wearing in Byzantine mosaics. She refolded it carefully.

At the bottom of chest were light, airy shirts made of white and cream gauze. There were large rectangles of more of the gauze, also white or cream. Veils? There were thicker strips of fabric that must be cut on the bias because they had a lot of stretch for a woven fabric. Like an ankle wrap bandage. Ashley searched her memory for the tidbits she’d learned in her history of fashion class. Leg wraps? No, too wide. It dawned on her what it must be. The ancient world’s version of a bra. She would have to wrap the strips around her chest to keep her boobs from bouncing around. Ashley didn’t want to be boastful, but she had a lot of boobage to bounce. If she did any more riding, and she figured she would, she would need something to hold the girls steady.

She found six pairs of socks that looked handknit of undyed wool. Also, several pairs of loose, light weight shorts. She stared at them, trying to figure out why she had shorts. It came to her, with a spurt of giggles, that they must be underwear. Like boxer shorts.
At the bottom of the chest there was a pair of brown leather ankle boots and a pair of dark green leather shoes. They looked like they would fit pretty well. Which was good, because these silk slipper-shoes were trashed.

She almost missed the two wooden boxes fastened to the lid of the chest. One wooden box held a carved bone comb, a brush, and a small hand mirror. Another small wooden box held an odd little brush and a waved linen bag full of powder that smelled like black licorice. A toothbrush and toothpaste?

She sat back on her heels, staring at the contents of the chest strewn about. Six tunics. Four pairs of pants. Underwear and toiletries. Had Jerriel picked out these things himself, or had he ordered his palace seamstress to pack a chest full of clothes for his ‘wife’? Either way, he had brought these clothes and toiletries for her, and the tent. He had planned for her to come here. Pretty arrogant of him, considering that she could have been killed or raped by his army.

Disturbed by that thought, she put the comb and mirror on the table and picked up one of the cream shirts. It wasn’t quite transparent. Maybe in the sun it would be, but it would work for inside the tent.

It wasn’t until she was carefully undressing that she realized that though the ivory silk dress was unfamiliar she was wearing her own bra and panties. Geez, if I was going to keep my own underwear, why couldn’t they be the nice ones? Nonetheless, those washed-so-often-they-were-gray Fruit of the Looms were precious keepsakes now. All they needed was a trip through the washer and dryer. Who would do laundry? She wondered. That kid, Danior? If just mentioning her clothing made him blush, washing her undies would probably finish him off. With a shrug, she stripped her bras and panties off, tossed them in the tub, and climbed in herself.

The water was heavenly warm. The soap in the paper packet was made of little pellets with a floral scent. Maybe a cross between roses and lilacs. It lathered nicely in the washcloth. The tub was too small to stretch out in, but she wanted to luxuriate in the incredible comfort of warm water. But she wasn’t sure when Jerriel would come and she didn’t want to be caught in the tub, so she hurried to wash as thoroughly as she could while being careful not to bang her left elbow against the side of the tub. Hair washing was tricky, and she had only the soap flakes, but it worked well enough as shampoo. It also worked as laundry soap. She scrubbed her underwear as well as she could before wringing them out and laying them over the edge of the tub.

She dried herself and wrapped her hair in the towel before putting on the shirt and a pair of the boxers. She looked for a good place to hang her undies to dry and finally settled on draping them over the back of one chair.

The supper was pretty tasty, if not as hot as it had been before her bath. Beef stew with big chunks of carrots and another vegetable she couldn’t identify. In fact, the meat might not have been beef. It was slightly gamey. Maybe deer? The bread was crusty on the outside and light and fluffy inside. Plain army rations, but she was probably eating better than anyone else from the Thessian city. She swallowed and set down the spoon. Maya was out there somewhere, probably with nothing to eat at all.

Jerriel had to come soon so she could get him to go find Maya.

But he didn’t come. Ashley tried on a pair of pants and put a tunic over the shirt and then opened the tent flap a few inches to see if anyone could take the bath out. There were two full grown Erabiri warriors outside, one on either side of the door to the tent. They called for Danior to come, and those same boys came in and carried the bath and the supper tray out. Ashley hid a smile at the way one of the boys frowned over the underwear draped over the back of one chair. She could almost imagine him trying to decide what they were. She knew when he figured it out by his fiery blush. They left the jug of water and cup.  She asked Danior, who hadn’t noticed the undies, if Jerriel had come yet, but he said no, it would probably be a few hours.

With nothing to do in the tent, she finally mixed up the pain reliever and made herself gulp it down. She combed her hair before putting the sling back on. She re-folded the clothes and put them in the trunk. The once-ivory dress lay in a pitiful crumple beside the bed. She picked it up and tried to fold it neatly, but it was a lost cause. She rolled it up in a bundle and put it on top of the chest. Then, with nothing else to do, she sat at the table, twiddling her thumbs. Literally. Ashley couldn’t remember the last time she had sat with nothing to do. No studying, no reading, no cleaning waited for her. She didn’t have even her phone to play on.

What had happened to her backpack and laptop? Were they lost somewhere in Grimstaborg? Or were they lying abandoned by the fountain on campus? Ashley cradled her arm in its sling against her chest. She and Maya had disappeared in front of dozens of people in a busy part of campus. Maya said it was like the concrete had crumbled from beneath their feet and down they fell into this world. Ashley glanced up and then shook her head. What had she expected to see? There was no gaping hole up there leading back to her real life. There hadn’t been back in Grimstaborg either. What about their jeans and shirts? How was it that she still had her underwear, but her outer clothing had changed? Trying to figure it out would drive her mad.

When they fell through the concrete, had anyone tried to catch them? There had been dozens of people in the Quadrangle. Those four girls who had been sitting at the fountain had been close enough to catch them. Ashley tried to remember if any of them had tried. Had they even noticed? Someone must have noticed two grown women disappear.

Oh, gosh, had her parents been notified that their daughter had disappeared into thin air? Her dad and his second wife lived in Colorado, but her mom was only a hundred miles away from the university. She must be completely freaked out. Geez, her mom had already gone through so much with her only child’s leukemia, and even if none of it was Ashley’s fault, she still felt guilty.

There was literally nothing she could do about it right now. Ashley laid her cheek on the table and closed her eyes as tears threatened. She needed to get to Maya. Her best friend was a genius. With her brilliant scientist’s brain, she would figure out a way for them to get back. She had to. They could not stay here. Jerriel … This wasn’t the Jerriel she’d invented. He wasn’t tender or sweet in any way. If he would help her find Maya she would be grateful, but as soon as Maya was found she wanted to be as far away from him and his bloody sword as possible. Home would be far enough. Ashley wanted to be home with an intensity that made her heart ache.

Surrendering, she wept, as quietly as she could, until her nose was completely clogged and her head ached. She wanted a tissue in the worst way, but there was nothing like that, so she opened the chest and dug out a veil to use on her nose.

The tent grew dim and cold as she waited for Jerriel, so she took off the sling and the tunic and laid down on the bed in the pants and shirt.  Goosebumps from the chill prickled her arms, so she pulled the lusciously soft blanket up to her chin. She expected the narrow bed to be uncomfortable, but it was perfect. Not too hard, and not too soft. Ashley tried to stay awake. Really, she did, because she needed to talk to Jerriel about Maya as soon as possible. But exhaustion drowned even her anxiety and sleep pulled her under.

Jerriel POV

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It was long past sunset when King Rodir rode to camp, chest tight with the weariness and exultation that warred within him. Woven through those was a silver thread so fine and strong it nearly cut him. Love. Hope.

Valdis.

He gave his horse to one of the herd boys and lifted a hand in farewell to his guards before walking through the camp to the tent that was his. Beside it was the tent he had brought for this night. He had lovingly gathered the contents, wanting his promised wife to be as comfortable as a war camp allowed. It and its furnishings had traveled, unused, from the Royal City and had been erected just this morning to house the only good and beautiful thing the conquered city boasted. Valdis. The silver thread pulled tight around his heart, drawing him toward the small tent.

Two of his own personal bodyguard stood on either side of the door flap. None but men he trusted utterly would be allowed near her. Jerriel made himself stand still. Her tent was dark. She must be sleeping. No need to interrupt her rest. In any case, what welcome would she give him if he came to her covered in the blood of her countrymen? He nodded to the guards and went into his own tent to bathe.

He passed through the outer room to his private quarters and his young cousin Danior appeared, sleepy-eyed, to pour water into the basin. Jerriel shucked his breastplate and vambraces while Danior knelt and unfastened his greaves. His cousin gathered the stained armor to carry away but paused.

Jerriel raised one eyebrow in inquiry.

“The lady,” Danior said carefully. “She wept tonight.”

Jerriel nodded and stripped off his battle-stained pants and shirt. Danior added those to his pile and left.

Clean, dressed in fresh clothing, Jerriel stood in the outer room of his tent, staring unseeing at the map on the conference table. His enemies were dead, all but the chief among them who was now his slave, the city that spawned them was in ruins, and his promised wife was only yards away, safe and secure beneath the canopy of his protection. Tonight, he should be celebrating. Instead, he stood alone in the dim light of an oil lamp and resisted the pull of the silver thread toward his bride. The bride who had been treated like an enemy prisoner and forced to witness his judgement. Those things he had not intended. She had wept? Of course, she had. His Valdis had a tender heart.

Why not go to her? He needn’t wake her to satisfy his yearning to look upon her. He picked up the lamp, turned it low so its light was the merest glow, and carried it the few yards to her tent.

“She sleeps?” he murmured to Jadziel.

“I believe so, Lord King.”

He nodded and passed through the flap. The light was low, but it was enough to see her form under the blankets on the bed. She was from a people who felt the cold more than the Erabiri did, so he had chosen those blankets with his grandmother’s help, wanting the finest for the wife he had waited ten years for. He stood for a moment to let that settle in his heart. The woman he had sworn himself to ten years ago was here, in his camp, protected by his own bodyguards, in the tent he had brought for her. The silver thread eased, and he was able to take a whole breath for the first time in days.

He set the lamp on the table and turned one of the folding camp chairs so he could sit and drink her in. Her hair was still brown, shorter than he remembered it being ten years ago, her face longer and thinner than he remembered, the plump roundness of her teenaged face gone. Her eyes were closed now, but this morning he had seen their beautiful gold color…

His teeth clenched. Her eyes had been filled with shock and horror. She held her shoulders straight, but her proud posture couldn’t hide the terror and horror she’d felt. Jerriel folded his arms over his chest. She had feared him. And, he remembered, she had denied she was his wife. Before his council and his guards, she had tried to refuse him. For ten years he had hoarded her love in his heart, planning for the day when he could rescue her and take her home to be his bride and queen. While she had…what? Forgotten him?

He would never hate her, could never harm her, but the pain of her rejection hurt him far more than a blade through his gut ever could. As he tried to make sense of it, her eyelashes quivered.

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